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Thursday, October 27, 2005
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Boo~ Juz came back from my 1 hr break from studying......hahah` tats to watch TV at TV lounge...9-10pm every weekday...im sure there to watch....my favourite show!!!! the NKF Children show on Chn8!!!
I'll never get sick of that show....the oni show that i 'chase' to watch...every season...every epidsode......It never fails to touch mi and rekindles my volunteering spirit..... Especially this epidsode got my favourite actor and actress, 7-1-5 and Rui'En....hehe~ I like to see them together...haha perfect match~ *GeEz*
2dae's show very touching...i teared twice......*sobz* so embarrassing to tear when watching show in a public TV lounge... I teared when FangLin scolded her sis and disowned her when Fang Fang refused to let him donate liver to Wei'an...Haix.....Standing on a sister's point of view....realli veri disheartening manz.... One side she's realli tinking for the good of him, yet not being appreciated....(sobz...im tink im gonna tear again while i recall...sobz...im a cry-baby..)...Somemore She had spent so much effort on him and loved him the most.....Haix....if Cedric ever does that to mi...I realli can't imagine how I will feel manz...My bro...my dear dear bro...oopse....i miss him...shall go home tis weekend to pai him~
Haix....but on the other hand (oopse...sounds like GP), Fan-lin did it out of love for Wei'an larz....even want to marry her just so as to be able to donate liver to her legally....Haix....'Ai qin so Wei da'... Mayb love realli drives ppl to do anithing baz...
Hmmm...I want to do social work... FOR LIFE!!!! Haix....but still have to ans to the practicality of life to feed myself and my family.....
Oh yar....and while watching TV...I was reading magazine.....The Lime Magazine September 2005 edition given from the goodie bag from Jieyu and Febri's party at Indochine. Wahz...its so funnily related to mi, like as if i know sooo many people in the world.....First...there was an article abt the NTU Union's Bash written by Peggy Chua NTU Communication Studies Student (Peggy the NY Senior? I've been seeing her like almost everyday nowdaes! Dunno y...) Next to it, it was another article featuring on a dancer from the NYP Foreign Bodies Dance Society(R&B Hip hop dance club) that i planned to join when i was in NYP...And guess wad...the article was writeen by a Media-Studies student!!! My ex-course!!! Miss it! Next...was this whole article on wakeboarding!!! WAHz!!!!! OH yar!!! Also got the results on Project Pilot ....Most of the winners for professional catogogy focused on a documentary-reality TV route...so nice...I like....I've always wanted to do a documenatary-reality type of show for volunteerism....
Okaez....Here's the plan!!! CHRISTINE's LIFETIME BIGGG GOAL!!!! THE SMALL GIRL WITH THE BIG BIG DREAM!!!!!
1. Im gonna work veri veri veri veri hard for the coming exam and for the next sem!
2. Appeal for change of course to communication studies by next yr (pray hard!)
3. Work even harder and build up a good media portfolio.
4. Graduate with good results!
5. Work hard in the media field... Be it in advertising or productions.
6. Earn enough money....Take up a private course on Social work....
7. Continue my media-related work and focus into the arena of social issues and social work as my focus.
8. Make a difference to the society as much as i can..
9. Retire as a fulfilled person and continue even more volunteering and inspirational work!!!!
Wahz!!!! Its gonna b lots of hard work and determination and perserverance!!! C'mon Chris!!! I CAN DO IT!!!! I shall reach for my goal!!!! Everyone around mi!!!! Remind mi of my dreams and help mi work towards it!!!!
Okay~ Shall not speak no action. End off here.....shall go and mugg hard now as part of achieving my goal~~~ GaMbeTtA!!!
::__. eXquisTic . SoPhiStIcaTion____::
Thursday, October 27, 2005
----Boo...-----
Gosh~ im actually typing my blog now in Lee Wee Nam Library......Argh! Exams next week!!! And there's still so much more to study!!!!
Im gonna camp in the library everyday till late from now on o mugg my heads off....just like during A-levels.....
Haix.....feel so weak 2dae...didn't sleep well last nite...... have been waking up in the middle of the night either due to funni noises or because of the rabbits chasing each other in the middle of the night in the cage. Aniwae getting quite paranoid recently...the rabbits are growing so BIG!!! And all they do everyday are just eat, sleep and shit!!! I tink one day they're gonna grow soooo BIGGG!!! THE RABBITS ARE GONNA EAT MI UP ONE DAY!!!!
BLarz.....is it due to my stressness...im having illusions....Haix...there's sooooo mani things to settle!!!! YV stuff....exams....JCRC Stuff....my life...( do i haf one now?!?!)....My mind is exploding....Can't even eat or sleep in peace....hope the days can be over soon.....25th NOV!! LAST PAPER!!!!
I've got sooo mani tings I want to do after exams...but i tink my schedule has already been fully packed. So ani other dates or outings...pls book mi earlier so tat i can arrange my time. Gonna b soooo busi wif Hall stuff....Busi wif JCRC meetings, my social subcom meetings, cheerleading trainings, swimming training, netball trainings, JHOC meetings....So mani.......Plus Im gonna put my heads and minds into running YV....gonna b busi with volunteering...which I miss qutie a lot.....Still got this 'Kids Camp' thing that I signed up in sch frm 27th-29th Dec...quite looking forward to it...veri long never do direct volunteering...miss the smilez...
Haix....Gonna b busi earning money too~ Took up like 4 tuitions liaoz....one P3/P5 (Eng/Math)twice a week x 2hr at Boon Lay-$300, another wan Sec2 (Eng/E.Lit/Math/Sci/Humans) twice a week x 2hr at Serangoon-$400, then my Sec 4 Seletar Camp Math every sat morning x 2Hr-$160, then a JC1 GP every sunday 4-6p.m- $280.....If everything goes on well my montly income will be $1140...WOAHZ! Then I no need take money from daddy and mummy liaoz.....
Tink its manageable....but its gonna b damm tiring...wad to do...tats life....Life is hard...gonna realli push myself to the limit if i wan the best of life.....Haix...hope I can take it!
GAmBetTa ChRisTiNe!!!!!!
::__. eXquisTic . SoPhiStIcaTion____::
Thursday, October 27, 2005
Tuesday, October 18, 2005
_t u r n i n g____. c r a z i____
Gosh! Im turning crazi!!!!! Im so stressed up now by everything?!?!?!
ArgHHHH!!!!!! All the symptomes of stress are reviling~~~So mani things to do and sooooooo little time!!!!!
I feel like hiding in my room alone all the time....I panic and feel pek chek at the ring of my phone or when hearing the msg tone...or even the soudn for MSN! I noe I have a lot of things to do but i dun feel like doing anitink...or shld I sae i can't get myself to settle down to complete aniting......
I juz bought a pack of chicken chop from can13, changing all the fries and beans and everything else to coleslaw...but i end up finishing oni the coleslaw then now left one big piece of the chicken chop and i feel like vomitting readi......*SiCk!*
Im subconciously holding my breathe for short pauses...not being able to breathe properly....im subconciously plucking my hair while im trying to study... Im starting to blubber nonsense more and more juz like what im doing now!~~~ HELP~!~!~!
ArGh!ArGh!ArGh!ArGh!ArGh!ArGh!ArGh!ArGh!ArGh!ArGh!ArGh!ArGh!ArGh!ArGh!ArGh!ArGh!ArGh!ArGh!ArGh!ArGh!ArGh!ArGh!ArGh!ArGh!ArGh!ArGh!ArGh!ArGh!ArGh!ArGh!ArGh!ArGh!ArGh!
::__. eXquisTic . SoPhiStIcaTion____::
Tuesday, October 18, 2005
Monday, October 17, 2005
+ -= r e b i r t h =-+
+ -= R e b i r t h =-+
Its really since stone ages ago that i last did anything about my blog. Now..its up and going again!!! Yeah~!Finally...Haix...I really tink im crazi....i actually spent time doing up my blog skin and typing blog now?!? like now?!? 5am in the morning with sch at 8am later? When everyone's mugging for exam and im supposed to mug too? Hiax...and when i've got so mani more other things waiting for mi to settle??? Y did i actually have time to do all these crap?!!! Well, I guess i gave up on pioritising for this once to do something really for myself and something i realli feel like doing. Im quite deprived from personal time for tooo long...In short...i tink im going crazi~ blarz~
Kaez.....for the soooo long that i've been missing from my bloggies....too many things happened in my life. So many that i dun tink i want to bother go and remember and account for them one by one again...Everything juz happened so fast and so sudden that they seemed to be juz passing winds of my life....Haix...Shall juz let everything remain in my memories.....
While doing up my blog, and when im doing up the links to my friends, I realised that I've been missing on my friends for very long. I haven been making the effort to go and find out how's everyone doing and even to keep in contact with them. I miss everyone. I miss all my dearies in St'nicks, jianing, zhiqi, daryl, shin,raf,van, qin,sue, pink etc etc etc...i miss all my times in 4Grace....and also all the SNGYM ppl... and all the training days and Huang... I miss all the dudes in CJC for first 3 months. All those craps and fun we had...I miss all my volunteering friends...Becky my ultimate darling, gary, kevin, junwen, jason so many so many....ANd of cos ....those peeps in NYJC, Ah poh, cline, ah ru, shyuanie, joan, the smart but crap guys of S3E...and definately i miss my 26th council......everyone.....my dear Aesthec memebers,cheryl, xinhui, chieh,fish, ping ping, feli, febri, rayze, kok, angel,jayne, bird, jasmine-.l, andre....everyone who have all been all so dear to me... Even for the very short time i spent in NYP...I miss all my friends in MS0502, mich dear, clor, jace, yuran, all the girls and guys that were like little bros and sis to me but definately so fun to be with....I miss everyone!!!
Last but not least, I really miss one person...somewan that im starting to wonder if i've lost tis friendship. We used to spend almost everyday together, spending every little thing we know and sharing everything we could....now, there seemed to be this unknown boundary between us. I realli miss shawn. Realli...I dunno what went wrong, haf I done anything wrong or was there juz something wrong tat resulted in the distances between us. I wish i noe...Im typing tis veri bluntly cos i dun tink she will ever read this aniwae...somehow things juz changed so suddenly and without me knowing y...im realli hurt by it...(i feel like crying...). I admit im veri much affected by her change in attitude towards mi...i realli wish to know y... was reading her blog juz now....she seemed to be happi now....happi wif her life in hall....happi with her boyfriend....im happi for her...though i dunno y im feeling sad that i can only read abt her from her blog. All the best.
Mayb its something wrong with mi. Suddenly got this feeling that i've realli been too busi with so mani things that i've neglected the relationships in my life. I tink I've taken friends too much for granted. I've always been so rushing for time that I can't remember when's the last time i sat down to juz haf coffee with my friends or hang out without having ani other worries or having to rush off to some other 'work'. When's the last time i actually got the time to sit down and listen to my friends with my heart...When's the last time i meet up with friends purely for catching up and not for work...I have to admit that I do have a huge network of friends, so many that some people might envy, but deep down i have to admit that out of all the many that i stop and say hi to...how many do i actually truely noe? All but juz 'hi-bye' friends, in fact some that i have to admit i dun realli remember if i noe them.
I tink im tired. Tired of the life im having. I want to settle down...I want to spend time embracing the moments i have with my families and friends.. I want to spend time remembering my friend's' birthdaysI really feel like settling down once this episode of my life is over.....
-A princess,but a lonely life. ...how happy can it be?-
::__. eXquisTic . SoPhiStIcaTion____::
Monday, October 17, 2005
